The-thesis-that-must-not-be-named keeps haunting me like the worst kind of Halloween spook. I simply don’t know why I can’t get on with it, and what’s worse is that I’m actually starting to imagine a life without graduation…after all I already have a job I moderately enjoy and that keeps me from begging for money on the street. What I don’t think I could live with is
The past few months have been a rough ride, and if I were a little sympathetic with me I’d accept I’m still healing from the mayor crisis I went trough, the real problem here is that the rest of the world is not going to be as nice, and it’s more likely to keep pushing and pushing and pushing until I break or bend. I like to write, and tough I don’t have time to sit around doing nothing I could certainly manage an hour or two a day to work on my it, so why the hell I run away from it like it was the plague is beyond me. And it’s not even like I forget about it, because I get absolutely no moment of peace, my mind is never really free from it and I can never say, like I used to when I was in college, “well, I’ve worked x amount of time so I’m gonna relax for x amount of time”, come to think about it, I never truly relax because I have this huge weight on my back that I could but won’t lift from myself, it’s freaking masoquism!
On a totally related note, perhaps becuase of the cramps it’s causing me, here in Mexico we’re a month away from Enrique Peña Nieto’s ceremony to officially take office. I say officially, because the current president has basically stopped pretending to have any authority left. I remember six years ago I was hysterical because I had no doubt Calderón’s election was a fraud; this time around I’m quietly watching the political changes go by, not because I’m happy with them, but because I cannot honestly claim without the election was a fraud.
Peña Nieto’s party bought the election, that’s definetely truth, but is was the mexicans who decided to sell their votes for groceries, and since everybody knew beforehand that our electoral institutions are a sad joke, it’s no surprise there was no punishment for these actions.
On December 1st, when EPN becomes Mexico’s president, I will not be angry, I’m just gonna be terribly sad because my country got the president it deserves…
not all about cats 
That’s a harsh reality. In the US we just get to watch big money battle big money for electoral college votes, we’ve unfortunaly already proven that one does not get to be president by majority votes. Good luck with your studies.
I know, if I were from the US gastritis would have eaten me away knowing that majority votes don’t guarantee victory. Thanks for the wishes! xx
This can only mean that you’re a member of the exclusive Stonelike-thesis-carrying-Pípila club, dear Chatte Nocturne… but guess what, there’s also a yet more exclusive club of the Once-suffering-Pípila-but-now-happily-graduate, so you’re invited any time.
Gosh Ivan, it just seems so hard sometimes… but I promise I’ll soldier on. xx
just a question about your thesis…are you afraid of failure or success? one of those could be what’s stopping you, just a thought
can it be both at the same time? thanks for the idea, I’ll try to think outside my box to see what’s in my way. xx
it could be actually…
xo