Writing also helps

I feel like I’m on the verge of breaking down again, and I’m not sure I know how to stop it. All day long I’ve been feeling empty, robot-like, and now the tremblings are starting, together with the ache right in the middle of my chest. But I know it’s not gonna happen today, today I’m just gonna lay down and I’m even gonna fight it.

The strange thing is I had been feeling ok. Halloween at school was fun for the kids and I even dressed up, makeup and everything, like a black cat, something I hadn’t done in years. All I can think of is that stepping out of the routine, as much as I hate to admit it, got to me yet again.  And it’s not like I like my routine, I pretty much f*cking hate it, however it does give me some structure, something to hold on to, in the middle of my chaotic life. A demanding job from 7:30 to 3:30 is the last thing I wish for me, but I do have to admit that it’s the part of my day that puts my feet on the ground, most of the time everything else is just spinning around and I have absolutely no power to stop it.

Something different this time is that I don’t want it to get to me. Who knows… my little experiment of writing about it is surprisingly already helping me feel better.

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12 thoughts on “Writing also helps

  1. Writing can be incredibly cathartic. I have found that it has helped me through some very troubling times. I have just started to write because, daily, for years…. I did not think I could make it one more day. Still, I find it difficult on a lot of days.

    I wish you the best on your journey through life.

    Always,
    Me

    • I know the feeling, sometimes taking one day a a time is really all you can do… I’ve always writen but I used to be very secretive about it, and I’m beginning to see that when you let your writing out in the open, its healing power is multiplied.

      I wish you the best too, thanks for taking the time to comment!

      • I have written in journals at times… but I have always torn them up and thrown them away… it still helped somewhat, but nothing like the freedom I am experiencing now.

        I wish you the best always as well.

  2. Espero que sí te haya servido escribir y que te hayas sentido mejor después de hacerlo… No sabes como me gustaría que mi presencia en tu vida pudiera ayudar a que te sintieras mejor y a que estos momentos de angustia, de dolor en el pecho y de tristeza, cada vez fueran menos frecuentes o incluso, porque no; a que desaparecieran definitivamente. Sé que lo que menos quieres para ti es un trabajo tan demandante y con un horario tan pesado como el que tienes amor, pero creo -y se que así será- que pronto encontrarás uno en el que te sientas plena y feliz. Te Amo!

      • When I feel better I write different. I do the weekly writing challenge or the weekly photo challenge. Or I write about a song that I think touched DV in someway. This way I keep writing. I do that for me. I know I won’t write when I feel bad if I don’t write when I feel good.

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