I have so much work to get done by tomorrow is unbelievable, and after such a stressful long weekend I don’t even know where to start.
As some of you already know, I spent the weekend at my uncle’s house in a different town. My mother asked me to take her there ’cause he’s dying and she wants to be close to him. I drove all afternoon and we got there in the evening. I truly was not prepared for what I was about to witness.
The last time I saw my uncle was at his 50th wedding anniversary. His children threw their parents a beautiful shower and they brought everyone together, even the ones living abroad. For one afternoon, everybody put their squabbles, traumas and resentment away and celebrated a lifelong marriage. He was already sick, he had been diagnosed with diabetes years before and he was getting dialysis, but he was still lively, danced around, and we all had a nice time. Now, 3 years later, he’s had one leg amputated, has moved on to hemodialysis, and is in constant excruciating pain. I had no idea all I would see was bones covered in skin. A man who cannot even sit up in bed, or eat, or speak without his tongue getting twisted, or speak more than a sentence without uttering screams of pain. What’s worse is that the man’s head is all there. Granted, he is in and out of consciousness, but when he’s awake he’s all there, aware of what he’s become. When my mother got close to him today to say goodbye before we left, he tried to grab her by the hand and told her “Please, don’t come back”. I had to step out of the room because it was just too much. No one should have to go through this, it’s torture for both the sick one and his family.
After that and the horrific, gruesome dream I dreamed together with the memories it brought back… I just don’t really know what to do with myself. I have some texts to read, I have a weekly lesson plan to finish, and oh yes! To top it all off, my thesis seminar is tomorrow! God, this seminar was ill-fated for me ever since it started. I only hope I don’t make a huge fool of myself, at least not as much as last time, I only hope that this time around my writing speaks for me, the written word is really the best way I handle communication with other humans 🙄
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sorry so much going on, so many stresses all at once. good luck on the thesis, and on getting through all this in one piece.
Thanks Kat. Today was actually better. Hope you’re ok too. xoxo
I am so sorry for your uncle and everyone in your family. What a horrible thing. 😦 Sending thoughts of comfort and support.
Good luck on the seminar tomorrow.
Thank you dear. Your soothing thoughts were well received, and the seminar went ok. I hope you are doing better today. xoxo
Life can be hard. Sorry to hear. Sometimes the only thing we can do is pray.
True, it can be 😦
That is so sad for your uncle and for you. Life can be difficult and so unfair sometimes. Good luck with the seminar. take care
Thanks so much Ellen, the seminar was ok, one less thing to worry about. xx
I’m so sorry, sending hugs your way. xo
Thanks dear, lots of hugs for you too, I read it’s been a tough day for you 😦 xx
It has and thank you xo
Okay, regarding my last comment I see that you can’t get rest right now either 😦
I just hope the seminar goes well for you… you will get through this and I’m sure people won’t be unreasonable and stuff. xxx
Lol thanks. They weren’t unreasonable for the most part (there was this one guy who kept going at me like I did something to him!) And I’m a bit more relaxed today. xx
Hi Chatte: The scene with your uncle sounds very hard. Hard to see him that way; hard to know that this is his reality right now. I hope he does not linger long in his body with all the pain. Kim
Thanks Kim, I hope so too…xx